Hello my dearest girlfriends!
Hoping you guys in a healthy and good state. Yes you do! How can you read my blog if you are not in mood right? AHA CAUGHT YA
I am actually started to write this blog because of my painful life. For me, I think it is one of a mental depression (?) lol what am I thinking. But so far, I think it is legit to say so. Because it was true. It was such a pain to remember, but I will try my best to tell everyone what had really happened to me. Besides, I want to tell to people who think they are really fat and wanted to reduce their weight, make sure you read this before you take any action. I don't want people to take a wrong step just like I did. A little mistake, the biggest fear.
Firstly, right before I started my story, I hope that people will not bashing me or taking out the pictures, ANY PICTURES of this blog WITHOUT my permission. I think you did saw there is a chat box on your right side, yes there, please tell me right in the box.
It was all started when I was 10 years old, right after my bullshit puberty. I'm sure you know how puberty changes your whole fucking life. I can't stop from eating, I think I eat more than 5 servings a day and each session like almost 3 plates? Yes, I can't describe myself so much because arghhh I was too shy to talk a lot. I wish I can turn back time. I want to turn it upside down (LOL) So, my eating habit constantly continued until I reaches 12 years old. I still remember, a 147 cm girl wheighs almost 70 kg! A lot of people around me told that I am really really really fat. But what can I do? That is the real me. Why should I be mad at them? Huh bitch please. Far from the corner of my deepest heart, who the hell didn't cried their heart out when a drastic changes occur to you? From a beautiful young lady to an ugly monster? After I reached 13, I started to plan my eating habit. I wanted to vanish my old childhood memories. No friends, always getting ignored because ugliness due to shitty acne, blackhead, scars, tan HUH I wanted to get rid all of it!
Actually, I started to change my eating plan and my personal look because of one of my dearest friend. She was a dark girl, really really dark, a lot of pimples and fat. From my side of view, I considered her as an ugly person. But, imagine yea, she needs just only 3 years to clear the matter out. After 3 years, she is really beautiful. I can't say how she have been right now, until her CRUSH did ask for a date. Oh man, I am really give up with myself. Shit. It have been 12 years since I was in school, but I have never couple before. Why? Yes you are absolutely fucking brilliant. Because of my ugliness, my crush did ask my BEST FRIEND to make out with him. It is really fucking rude right AHAHAHAHAH whatever I will make sure he will NEVER taste my refreshing drops of love EVEN when he is thirsty suffering to death. Sounds evil right? I love my bad side of me. Fucking bad.
So, I did try a lot of famous diet because I wanted to reduce my weight fast. Who could know, I ended out fainted because I didn't eat all day AHAHA SUCH A DUMBASS. Sounds ridiculous right? But yea, there was a hidden moral value in it. We should ask for help if we didn't have any knowledge about anything in life. Seek for the answer on the right path, If God's will, you will find your answer. Oh yea, on the next chapter, I will share with you guys what had happened next.
I typed this blog while hearing The Two of Us- Sandara ft Kang Seungyoon. Good to know that I am addicted to Korean a little bit. Eh I mean, A LOT hahaha~ this song is way too great! I am really really addicted to it. I think I should sometimes blogging about Korean lol.
Tata Xx
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