Let's start it all over! -Part 2

Hello girlfriends!

It is already part 2 woohoo! Why so excited ah? Because today I am going to share some of my ugly duckling pictures with you guys! Okay before I reveal the pictures, I will continue my story a bit.

After taking my famous diet, I am finally realized that it is not working at all. I forgot what kind of method did I used, but do not easily trust internet! They are all fucking bastard. So, I told my mom what should I do. She is currently planning on losing some weight too, I trusted her not because she is my mom, but she ever attend a health program making her body looks like a never aged ahjumma. AHAHAHA. She told me, to lose your weight you must eat healthily, exercise regularly and drink plenty of water everyday. So, this is what I have done.

EATING PLAN
Breakfast- 1/2 cup of oatmeal and a glass of milk
Lunch- 3 pieces wholemeal biscuit
Evening- 1/2 cup rice, vegetables and chicken breast
Night- NO FOOD FOR SURE ;)
Water- 3 liters

*change your chips to a healthier snacks for instance fruits
*do not take any carbonate drinks
*take sugary drinks only in the morning

EXERCISE PLAN
You know, I had never exercise before. So it is a bit boring during my fitness session. But finally, I find a solution. I am grateful that I am addicted to Kpop, so I dance an hour everyday. It is easy, pick an energetic song and learn the dance. If it is too hard, do your own movement. Imagine it is your song and you are shooting an MV. Sounds addicting right? Yes it is! Besides,  I also do sit ups, squat and a few movements. I am exercising for 1 and half hour on each session, 3 times a week.

Some people didn't succeed on these two plans because of hectic day life. Oh come on, you should give a try! You can exercise in your office what! Target for 100 000 steps a day. Walk around you office, offer your mate any help by walking to their place. Easy meh.

Oh, I think I should reveal my before and after photos. The Catwang girl is me.

   I don't like eating but I like to chew out food and swallow it. Is that called as eating too? OH no.. I just                                                                                     ate.. :(

I just wanted to show how big my butts are. I don't think you can see clearly, but it doesn't fit in my hands when I grabbed it. Holy fuck.

Is it good? No right. You should know how tan I am. How ugly I am. Please bear in mind , I'm not blaming the God. Ever. 

Apart from that, I didn't showing myself to public is not because I'm not be myself. I am just lack of confidence. Will you show your face to everyone even if you are ugly as hell? If you think something bad about me, please kill yourself. 

AHA a bit emotional right? lol 

I think I am really really tan because I am living in a hot country, without ANY sun protection. Who the hell could apply sunblock to my skin? I am just 6 since I am tan. Before that, I am as fair as a Chinese kid. 

                                        See... I am so short. Look at my thighs. Damn full of fats.

                 I also don't care where did I sit. This is really ewwwwwww. I should care myself more!

Even the cows are more attractive than me :') It looks like I am pointing middle finger to the sky. AHAHAHA it was actually a peace xD

What will you react to my pictures? I didn't deny that I am ugly hahaha besides, see my fashion? It is really really outdated right lololol I am really lack of my fashion skills. Want some more? 

                                    Eating again? Wow.. I am really enjoying my food back then

                                                   From my back view. Heol~ disgusting

It is not my saliva okay! It just water drops from the slide! I swear :(

So far, do you think I am really unattractive? OF COURSE LAH! If I was born as another person, I should consider this girl a.k.a me as an ugly girl. I swear. 

Know what, I saved a pic of me, that is really really ugly I mean the ugliest among all if you said I am good enough after seeing all these pics. 

JJAJJANGG~ Actually while I am searching for my old pics, I laughed damn hard at this pic. It is way too funny! I don't know but haih I don't believe that this is me. 

You know what, after seeing this pics, I feel like I should change myself. I have sooo many bad habits. I like to judge people, but I don't realize that I am way too ugly to judge. I'm sorry to my parents for having a bad and ugly daughter like me. How could they love me? I am ugly and I have a bad personality. How could my parents bear it? 

I think it is enough for this part. I can feel my eyes are teary a little bit. How freak I am. Wait who place the onions in my eyes :''''''(

I wanted to watch KBS Drama Special tonight. I had watched a lot of them, but tonight's turn is Eunguk and the ugly duckling and Manbok you are pretty something lol I forgot its title. Last night, I watched The three females runaway. It is pretty addicting, I love the plot. Hahaha next time I will do drama review I promise!

Love yourself, Be youself. Jungshin charyo. Hwaiting!

With love, Xx

Let's start it all over!- Part 1

Hello my dearest girlfriends!

Hoping you guys in a healthy and good state. Yes you do! How can you read my blog if you are not in mood right? AHA CAUGHT YA

I am actually started to write this blog because of my painful life. For me, I think it is one of a mental depression (?) lol what am I thinking. But so far, I think it is legit to say so. Because it was true. It was such a pain to remember, but I will try my best to tell everyone what had really happened to me. Besides, I want to tell to people who think they are really fat and wanted to reduce their weight, make sure you read this before you take any action. I don't want people to take a wrong step just like I did. A little mistake, the biggest fear. 

Firstly, right before I started my story, I hope that people will not bashing me or taking out the pictures, ANY PICTURES of this blog WITHOUT my permission. I think you did saw there is a chat box on your right side, yes there, please tell me right in the box. 

It was all started when I was 10 years old, right after my bullshit puberty. I'm sure you know how puberty changes your whole fucking life. I can't stop from eating, I think I eat more than 5 servings a day and each session like almost 3 plates? Yes, I can't describe myself so much because arghhh I was too shy to talk a lot. I wish I can turn back time. I want to turn it upside down (LOL) So, my eating habit constantly continued until I reaches 12 years old. I still remember, a 147 cm girl wheighs almost 70 kg! A lot of people around me told that I am really really really fat. But what can I do? That is the real me. Why should I be mad at them? Huh bitch please. Far from the corner of my deepest heart, who the hell didn't cried their heart out when a drastic changes occur to you? From a beautiful young lady to an ugly monster? After I reached 13, I started to plan my eating habit. I wanted to vanish my old childhood memories. No friends, always getting ignored because ugliness due to shitty acne, blackhead, scars, tan HUH I wanted to get rid all of it! 

Actually, I started to change my eating plan and my personal look because of one of my dearest friend. She was a dark girl, really really dark, a lot of pimples and fat. From my side of view, I considered her as an ugly person. But, imagine yea, she needs just only 3 years to clear the matter out. After 3 years, she is really beautiful. I can't say how she have been right now, until her CRUSH did ask for a date. Oh man, I am really give up with myself. Shit. It have been 12 years since I was in school, but I have never couple before. Why? Yes you are absolutely fucking brilliant. Because of my ugliness, my crush did ask my BEST FRIEND to make out with him. It is really fucking rude right AHAHAHAHAH whatever I will make sure he will NEVER taste my refreshing drops of love EVEN when he is thirsty suffering to death. Sounds evil right? I love my bad side of me. Fucking bad.

So, I did try a lot of famous diet because I wanted to reduce my weight fast. Who could know, I ended out fainted because I didn't eat all day AHAHA SUCH A DUMBASS. Sounds ridiculous right? But yea, there was a hidden moral value in it. We should ask for help if we didn't have any knowledge about anything in life. Seek for the answer on the right path, If God's will, you will find your answer. Oh yea, on the next chapter, I will share with you guys what had happened next. 

I typed this blog while hearing The Two of Us- Sandara ft Kang Seungyoon. Good to know that I am addicted to Korean a little bit. Eh I mean, A LOT hahaha~ this song is way too great! I am really really addicted to it. I think I should sometimes blogging about Korean lol. 

Tata Xx